Spontaneous going to the cinema)) "Let's go to the cinema?". Just like this. Ira and Sasha persuaded me to go to this fucking meat chopper-film "Saw VI". Fuuuck yaa! I don't watch these movies cause I know - I won't sleep after it! But we bought tickets and went)) We were watching it in a front row!!! At lots of moments I just closed my eyes with hands) It's so cool when you can devote time just to friends. Any relationship is a work and without support they will slowly die. Sometimes you think: "Oh no, I'm so tired, I won't go for a walk with somebody". You think - this friendship is so old and nothing serious happen if you won't meet with your friend. But small rejections like this are invisible destructors - they destroy friendship, relationship like a wind destroys the Pyramids - very slowly. And I do like this very often, unfortunately... when I come to my hometown, sometimes I even don't tell somebody that I came, because I want to spend my time with family and don't want to "waste" time with friends, cause usually my visits home is just a couple days, so little time... But yes, I'm not right. If for example we call and meet our boyfriend/girlfriend every day, so why friends are worse? ANY relationship is a great daily work.

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Yesterday Tanya came and we were drinking coffee, sharing news, discussing everything... I didn't see her since I went to Cyprus - so about 4 months!! It's the longest period of parting since our meeting! I was so glad to see this smiling girl with long shiny hair and big black eyes with whom I've been living for 3 years:) We were like real grown-upped friends discussing a "big life" - relationship, job, tiredness, Moscow, common friends, problems, plans, future kids, married friends... And I thought: "Time is so fast so it seems that I even don't have enough time to finish my cup of coffee".

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Listening to "Stateless"-U2, wrapping myself warm in blanket and drinking coffee. I don't drink alcohol and don't eat meat, but the only 2 things I can't reject for a while - are cigarettes and coffee. But I'm on the way!)

A little bit sad. Memories don't let me sleep properly. And missing. I miss Oriana, Ugur, Saif, Samet... I miss absolutely everybody who was this summer with me, but these people became really close persons to me...

I miss Oriana's energy, professionalism, her laugh, her BROWNIES!!!))) hahah)) I told about her my LC and said: "Thats a real AIESECer!". Of course our "trouble-4"))) I wish I go to New York for Cristmas...

I miss Ugur, his jokes, his "hey, why didn't you bring me Baltika-3 from Russia, hah??", miss walkings, conversations about everything and his "You're maniac!!!"...

I miss Saif and sitting in front of dorm till sunrise) miss that jokes and that times, riddles and his "hey, man!!!" with this accent:))) Our adventures) So great my last days there!

Miss Samet and his "Hi canim" with this special face, my little brother, so funny when he's drunk:))I'm saving his earring he gave me before my bus to the airport.

I'm saving all the things I brought from Cyprus and look at them, read them from time to time. Things of memories are everywhere - on my hands, on my fingers, in my ears, on my wall, on my bag, in my bag, on my neck, everywhere! I didn't take off 2 necklaces from Ugur and Saif and they are still on my neck.

It's really hard not to think about it, not to remember it every moment or even forget... 2 months passed since my leaving Cyprus, but I still cry. I even can't imagine what should be happen to make me forget Cyprus and all that people. This time is much more worse, than I came back from Cyprus in February... I miss more, much more!!! Really, I didn't expect that.

In this point I'm finally lucky - I fond my geographical place from first attempt.