My university is in quarantine till 23 of November.

I did semester project about federal taxation for 3 days. Hard days are coming, session is coming.

Today was meeting with Dana) I had just 1 hour for spending time with her, but we enjoyed it very much! We were at coffee-house, at my favourite place in this city!) We had not so much time, but discussed everything))) I'm so happy to see someone who're enjoying his job and everything he does, because it's a mission of his life) and Dana is so happy! She'll go to India in January with her boyfriend for about 1 month! 1 year of work in EB made us good friends with her - she is a person with whom I can discuss emotions, feelings, meaning of life...she's my soulmate)

Then with Natasha we went to Tanya's house. After her yesterday call we decided: she needs an urgent meeting with us. Sometimes there is situation when you're totally confused, you think: "I have to cut it from my life", but you can't and you need help. Lots of help. This meeting was really hard and emotional... We all are worrying about Tanya and I'm still thinking about all this situation. Everything is always so complicated... Main point for me from this - if something (someone) stopped bring you a happiness and became a habit and routine - run!!! If you're not happy anymore and just cry all the time - give it up and run! Even if it's painful, fuck it, just say "goodbye" and live your life.

Today I realized that the "real life" isn't coming, it already came! Today Natasha bought vitamins, she's preparing for pregnancy. She want a baby so much! omg!!! very-very soon I hope she'll say: "I'm pregnant!". And who knows, maybe after 1 year we'll go for a walk with her and her little baby :) really... I can't believe it! I remember her wedding like it was yesterday! Today I understood - she is the most wise woman I know! She is just 21, but really... She's so ready for real family, for being a mom, her point of view about everything is so wise... and all her words today when we were with Tanya just proved it.

New life is coming soon... Natasha is preparing for maternity, Tanya is ready to finish this outdated relationship and start a new life from nothing, Sasha is enjoying her relationship and gonna move to London for carreer (actually I don't think she'll go, I'm sure she'll stay for her guy and marry him). And me. For getting married, for having a family you should be a very brave person. To do it means to dare, to trust, not to be afraid... I'm not so brave, and nearest 5 years I won't be, I'm sure. I'll be somewhere looking for new challenges, but not sitting with husband and with baby on my arm)

My dear girls... I want them to be happy and with lots of joy I'll share their happiness:)