Nobody can decide for you what is better. It's only your life and you will live it. You can ask for advice, but to listen someone's opinion and reaction? For what? It's better to listen to advice for concluding some statistics for yourself and make decision by your own.

Moreover, why you have to listen all that lectures and bla bla when you already did something and you're happy? They just will make you upset and deprive all your happiness and joy.

So, lesson #1: don't listen to anybody. Just do what you want, what will make you happy and what you think will be better for you and your future. Nobody can feel it better than you. Nobody will understand your feelings and motivation. If you feel that it'll be right - do it.

And when someone tryes to change your mind or to dictate his will, just think that it's your life and noone has any rights to do it with you.

I just have to choose one opportunity and focus on its achieving. The main thing I have to get - is independence. Then I'll do what I really want. I have 1 year for it.

Oh god, I feel like I'm 15 again and fighting for freedom and independence.

Oh, and btw - fuck them all, I want to live my life with my own scenario.