Our life always consists of 2 choices: "I want" and "I have to". And again this crossroads:

1. Opportunity to be OCP of project I dreamed when came to Aiesec! And I have its vision! - "I want!!"

2. I can't apply for it because I have to work and I won't have enough time for project. - "I have to".

Moreover:

1) there is already 1 candidate who wants to be project manager so much and I don't want to steal this opportunity. Maybe someone needs this development more than me right now.

2) I already have great experience in Executive Board and to be a project manager now would be step back.

But:

1) The project like this was my dream..

2) I don't want to take a break in my Aiesec experience

3) I was a coach of similar project

But on the other hand:

1) I have plans for next year

2) It would be better to focus on one thing - it'll be more effective

3) I refuse this opportunity for better things, so I can say that my "I have to" is "I HAVE TO do it for my other I WANT". It's only a question of time.

And maybe I already overgrew this step and it's time to play real games?..

I shouldn't dissipate my energies! Focus on! Focus on!

Eventually it's just an idea.