I was walking, looking at these people, at this town...and I was thinking about situations, when I judge them. No, it's not right, I'm not right. I judge them for their life-style, for their provincial worldview, for their: "how is Chelyabinsk?". Today I imagined - if I live here, I would think like this too, cause there is no way for global thoughts, just because people in this town have good salary, their living conditions are comfortable...for what do they need the rest of the world? They are just relatively self-sufficient. And sometimes I feel jelaous. They have everything, they just have to take it. This university - then directly to this atomic factory with huge salaries, then family, children, and everything is so comfortable for living here. Apartments, prices, even this fucking taxi for 50 rub aroung the city!! You want to see another country? Go and buy a ticket to Turkey, Egypt or Thailand - everybody do it! My friends who live here will achieve their "I have everything"-point of life rather faster than me, for example. Maybe because our "comfortable-points" are situated on different levels? Or maybe they are more lucky than me, just I didn't understand it before. Maybe all my rush is just useless?
Today I saw first snow here. Olesya came to me and we were sitting in the kitchen, I was drinking milk with cookies and we were sharing news. Then we went for a walk, it was terrible, cause I wasn't ready for this cold! Moreover it was snowing!! I'm shocked cause it's just october!!
Tomorrow I'm coming back to Che. I want and I don't want at the same time. Here I don't think about problems, here I don't have insomnia, here is just so warm and comfortable...sometimes I miss this life. And maybe those who says: "I'll come back to my hometown" are right? Maybe this life is just more suitable for future? For what do I want to get success, if I can have just everything which is necessary here? And with my 2 diplomas I would get very cool job here.
And just 1 question: "For what am I fucking my brain too much???"

But doubtfully scheme "challenge-achievment-challenge-achievment" will be available here. Without it and a lot of other things I don't feel a taste of life.