I went to bed 2,5 hours ago. I can't sleep. I can't relax. When I close eyes, I think about million things at the same time: summer (last and next), Cyprus, EuroXpro 2010 in Istanbul in March, job, uni, money, I want to go home and spend there 3-4 days, should I take back my cat or not?, which plans do I have for tomorrow?, new ideas are coming into my mind... etc. etc.

I took sedative, and even it doesn't help. I tried relaxing meditation for sleeping, tried not to think about something, but after 2 minutes again thoughts are coming!!!

Now it's 4.25. Actually I have a lesson at 8. And I suppose to wake up after 2h 30min. But I won't go. If I go, probably I'll die somewhere on the way to uni))

This day regimen is killing me and fucking up all my plans for the next day. Even if I wake up at 7, I can't fall asleep earlier that at 2 a.m.

And in this case psychologists would say something like: "You have some unsolved problem which bothers you, thats why you can't sleep". Especially I can't relax neck muscles, my teacher of physical education told that it means that I have unexpressed emotions. Reaction of our body directly related with emotional condition.

Thats a bullshit.

And now I'm hungry. But of course I won't eat at 4.30 in the morning.

Shit.