It's 2.26 a.m. here and I have too many thoughts in my head. They just don't let me sleep.

Listening to Ayo-Letter by letter and watching how cigarette's smoke is going up to the opened window.

Still trying to combine big picture in my head - what do I really want? And these people who ask questions, they are exploding my head. I don't know! I don't know anything. Everything is too complicated and this mess in my head doesn't let me live my life.

Waiting for "aha-moment" when everything will be simple, clear and structured.

Birthday is coming. Somewhy every year I don't want this day to come. Maybe because it became like obligation, when you think: "Ok, I have to meet with that people, do that and that..". I want to return that feeling from childhood when you can't sleep night before and when you feel butterflies inside and feel so excited, when your day is full of joy and happiness. Just when you know that there will be something magical and surprising...

Where is the magic? I heed it so much!