Crisises of personality come suddenly. One of them came to me few days ago and it looked like "crisis of middle age". I thought that it'll pass, but today when I said words "I regret that I missed so many things in my life", I realized - it won't. Yes, I really regret. I look at guys of my age who achieved much more than me, and I start to feel inferior. And inspite of I'm just 22, I ALREADY missed some things. I could be more successful, I could know much more things, I could be smarter!
Damn! It's all because of the empty horizon in front of me. I just lost it. Somehow I just lost orientation. How come that I feel lost?? I always need to strive for something, to see my goal, to have a dream in my heart and to believe in this dream!
How could I lose it all?..